The accident was horrible, and I was dumbstruck as it unfolded in front of me. An errant driver in his Cadillac SUV with no care for his safety or anyone else's came at an alarming rate of speed from behind me.
I saw him in my rearview mirror. The speed limit was 50 mph, but he was doing 70 and climbing.A Nissan Sentra minding its own business three car lengths ahead of me in the right lane. Its left turn signal came on, indicating its intention to move into my lane at a safe clip. I let off the gas to give him his space; at that moment, I looked up in my rearview mirror, and here came the Cadillac. With no turn signal, he came around my left; his turn was too broad. Just as the Sentra entered the lane before me, I saw the driver's window roll down. The Cadillac shot in from the left lane and bumped the Nissan off the road, sending it up the embankment. I could see the driver trying to wrest control of his vehicle as he frantically turned it left and right, but to no avail. The external force of the SUV bumping the Nissan off the road was too strong for the driver to do anything. It spun up the embankment and paused for a mere second before tumbling back down end over end. The driver was ejected at some point while his vehicle was totaled. Whoever was behind the wheel of the Cadillac never stopped to help; he just drove off as if nothing happened. I pulled over, grabbed my flashlight, got out of my own car, and ran back down to look for the driver of the Nissan. To my surprise, there was no one else on the road at the time of the accident; there was just myself as the witness, the idiot who caused the accident, and the man who got into the wreck as the result of someone using his oversized car as an extension of his ego.
I passed the mangled wreck of the Nissan, and the air was so pungent with the smell of gasoline that it made me gag. The car's contents were scattered about, papers and a plastic cooler. Tools from the trunk and the spare tire were thrown on the other side of the highway. I finally found him at the bottom of the embankment, where the grass and dirt meet the concrete. His body was mangled, and he was crushed by the weight of his own vehicle after being ejected from it; it managed to tumble right on top of him. His limbs were grotesquely positioned like a cowboy Woody doll would be if you haphazardly threw it on the floor with no care. Luckily, his eyes were blinking, and looking back and forth, he tried to say something, but it was incomprehensible. I knelt down next to him and focused only on his face. When I think about it now, if I had looked at the condition of his body, I would have screamed in horror and left him there.
"I'm Herman. I saw everything that happened. I called 911; help is on the way." He kept trying to say something, but I didn't want him to expend more energy. "Don't try to talk, sir. Just relax."
He finally got the words out; his voice was scratchy and hoarse. "Are you an atheist?"
Considering the circumstances, I couldn't believe his question, but I replied, "No, I'm a Buddhist."
"Thank God," he sighed. "If I asked you to pray with me before I died, I would have been fucked if you were an atheist."
He managed a chuckle, and I'm not sure if I laughed or cried, but he scolded me, "No time for that shit! You pray your way, and I'll pray mine, okay?"
"Okay," I nodded.
His face turned red with the effort as he tried to move his limbs. "I can't feel my arms and legs....shit...must be fucking broke....can you put your hand on my shoulder, and then we'll start?"
Obliging him, I placed my hand on his shoulder, and the prayers began, I first started with the recitation of the Lotus Sutra, and then I offered a prayer in Hawaiian. As he prayed the rosary, he suddenly became calm, and whatever pain there was that racked his body was gone. The night suddenly became quiet, and the stars appeared as giant clusters in the black sky. A light, misty rain fell almost like a blessing, and the man closed his eyes as if to greet it. We both did.
"What's your name?" He asked while trying to focus his eyes on me.
"Herman Kenai," I bowed to him and smiled.
"You won't believe this, but my name is Herman Kenai! There's no such thing as coincidence, huh?" He laughed at the irony of the situation. I was covered with chicken skin.
"Wow," I replied. "What the hell?"
"Herman," his eyes seemed to peer into mine with a strange understanding. "Why did you agree to pray with me just now even though I'm not a Buddhist?"
"I just think prayer is prayer no matter its form. We're all traveling to the same mountain; how we get there might differ, but there's no reason we can't help each other along the way." That's how I felt about it; I wasn't sure how he would take it. Not everyone agrees.
"Right before that car struck me, I was having a religious dilemma," he managed to lift his head a little and looked directly at me. "I lost everything, my wife, my kids....my job. At every turn, it felt like I was being kicked while I was down. I started hanging with a bad crowd and got involved with some bad stuff. I did it because I felt that what I believed in wasn't true, so I was taking a late drive, and I asked the powers that be to give me some kind of sign that they were for real. Then I said to myself, "Who are you kidding? There's nothing out there." I was feeling ornery...I rolled down my window so I could defiantly spit on God......and then WHAM! I got clobbered...how the fuck is that for an answer?"
I had no answer for him. I wondered if what had happened to him was ironic or if it was indeed a reply. "I'll make you a deal," he said. If there is another side, I'll give you a sign.
"You don't have to do that, Herman. You just go when you're ready, and you find peace." I couldn't hold back the tears. They just came forth like a flood.
"It'll be a fine misty rain like just a minute ago; it'll come when there's not supposed to be one." That was Herman's last word. He passed with a smile, and his appearance was peaceful and tranquil. The EMT and the firefighters arrived at about the same time as the police. It was 2:44 in the morning.
A YEAR LATER THERAPISTS OFFICE
I told everyone that I didn't need a therapist and that I was okay. I had no PTSD as a result of witnessing the accident and spending the last few moments of Herman's life with him. I was fine. However, I had to quell the concerns of my loved ones; otherwise, I would never hear the end of it. So I went. The six-month term was up and it was the last day in the office, I thanked the therapist for her help and her time and told her that I hoped I wasn't a hard case? She laughed it off as she was trained to do and assured me that I shouldn't worry. I didn't, like her, I was just being nice. I needed to relax after the session, so I decided to go up Pi'ikoi to the freeway rather than take the usual route. The traffic wasn't too bothersome, and I got to the on-ramp that merged into the Punahou off-ramp. Maneuvering from an on-ramp to an off-ramp to get to the freeway is tricky if you don't have the driving dexterity and patience. I was right at the merge with my left turn signal on when I looked in the rearview mirror and noticed a black SUV on my bumper. Usually, I'm courteous and move up a bit to give someone space, but this person was aggressive. He suddenly made an illegal move and jumped the medium to get around me. He nearly took out a mini and a motorcycle rider. Horns began beeping at him as he sped up and started to ride bumpers from the back. The second he got some room, he took it and sped off towards the Punahou overpass. I only had a second to realize that this was the Cadillac SUV from last year, the one that ran Herman off the road. Before I could even get mad and chase that jerk down, a beautifully colored rainbow appeared between the overpass and Kapiolani Hospital. The sun must have shone at the correct angle because the rainbow was so rich and vivid. What was also apparent was the fine misty rain through which the sunlight was able to cast the otherworldly rainbow. Up ahead, I could just make out the fine misty rain covering the Cadillac SUV as it ignored the speed limit and began to weave in and out of traffic. The fine, misty rain stayed with the vehicle until it passed the U.H. cut-off.
I passed the mangled wreck of the Nissan, and the air was so pungent with the smell of gasoline that it made me gag. The car's contents were scattered about, papers and a plastic cooler. Tools from the trunk and the spare tire were thrown on the other side of the highway. I finally found him at the bottom of the embankment, where the grass and dirt meet the concrete. His body was mangled, and he was crushed by the weight of his own vehicle after being ejected from it; it managed to tumble right on top of him. His limbs were grotesquely positioned like a cowboy Woody doll would be if you haphazardly threw it on the floor with no care. Luckily, his eyes were blinking, and looking back and forth, he tried to say something, but it was incomprehensible. I knelt down next to him and focused only on his face. When I think about it now, if I had looked at the condition of his body, I would have screamed in horror and left him there.
"I'm Herman. I saw everything that happened. I called 911; help is on the way." He kept trying to say something, but I didn't want him to expend more energy. "Don't try to talk, sir. Just relax."
He finally got the words out; his voice was scratchy and hoarse. "Are you an atheist?"
Considering the circumstances, I couldn't believe his question, but I replied, "No, I'm a Buddhist."
"Thank God," he sighed. "If I asked you to pray with me before I died, I would have been fucked if you were an atheist."
He managed a chuckle, and I'm not sure if I laughed or cried, but he scolded me, "No time for that shit! You pray your way, and I'll pray mine, okay?"
"Okay," I nodded.
His face turned red with the effort as he tried to move his limbs. "I can't feel my arms and legs....shit...must be fucking broke....can you put your hand on my shoulder, and then we'll start?"
Obliging him, I placed my hand on his shoulder, and the prayers began, I first started with the recitation of the Lotus Sutra, and then I offered a prayer in Hawaiian. As he prayed the rosary, he suddenly became calm, and whatever pain there was that racked his body was gone. The night suddenly became quiet, and the stars appeared as giant clusters in the black sky. A light, misty rain fell almost like a blessing, and the man closed his eyes as if to greet it. We both did.
"What's your name?" He asked while trying to focus his eyes on me.
"Herman Kenai," I bowed to him and smiled.
"You won't believe this, but my name is Herman Kenai! There's no such thing as coincidence, huh?" He laughed at the irony of the situation. I was covered with chicken skin.
"Wow," I replied. "What the hell?"
"Herman," his eyes seemed to peer into mine with a strange understanding. "Why did you agree to pray with me just now even though I'm not a Buddhist?"
"I just think prayer is prayer no matter its form. We're all traveling to the same mountain; how we get there might differ, but there's no reason we can't help each other along the way." That's how I felt about it; I wasn't sure how he would take it. Not everyone agrees.
"Right before that car struck me, I was having a religious dilemma," he managed to lift his head a little and looked directly at me. "I lost everything, my wife, my kids....my job. At every turn, it felt like I was being kicked while I was down. I started hanging with a bad crowd and got involved with some bad stuff. I did it because I felt that what I believed in wasn't true, so I was taking a late drive, and I asked the powers that be to give me some kind of sign that they were for real. Then I said to myself, "Who are you kidding? There's nothing out there." I was feeling ornery...I rolled down my window so I could defiantly spit on God......and then WHAM! I got clobbered...how the fuck is that for an answer?"
I had no answer for him. I wondered if what had happened to him was ironic or if it was indeed a reply. "I'll make you a deal," he said. If there is another side, I'll give you a sign.
"You don't have to do that, Herman. You just go when you're ready, and you find peace." I couldn't hold back the tears. They just came forth like a flood.
"It'll be a fine misty rain like just a minute ago; it'll come when there's not supposed to be one." That was Herman's last word. He passed with a smile, and his appearance was peaceful and tranquil. The EMT and the firefighters arrived at about the same time as the police. It was 2:44 in the morning.
.............
A YEAR LATER THERAPISTS OFFICE
I told everyone that I didn't need a therapist and that I was okay. I had no PTSD as a result of witnessing the accident and spending the last few moments of Herman's life with him. I was fine. However, I had to quell the concerns of my loved ones; otherwise, I would never hear the end of it. So I went. The six-month term was up and it was the last day in the office, I thanked the therapist for her help and her time and told her that I hoped I wasn't a hard case? She laughed it off as she was trained to do and assured me that I shouldn't worry. I didn't, like her, I was just being nice. I needed to relax after the session, so I decided to go up Pi'ikoi to the freeway rather than take the usual route. The traffic wasn't too bothersome, and I got to the on-ramp that merged into the Punahou off-ramp. Maneuvering from an on-ramp to an off-ramp to get to the freeway is tricky if you don't have the driving dexterity and patience. I was right at the merge with my left turn signal on when I looked in the rearview mirror and noticed a black SUV on my bumper. Usually, I'm courteous and move up a bit to give someone space, but this person was aggressive. He suddenly made an illegal move and jumped the medium to get around me. He nearly took out a mini and a motorcycle rider. Horns began beeping at him as he sped up and started to ride bumpers from the back. The second he got some room, he took it and sped off towards the Punahou overpass. I only had a second to realize that this was the Cadillac SUV from last year, the one that ran Herman off the road. Before I could even get mad and chase that jerk down, a beautifully colored rainbow appeared between the overpass and Kapiolani Hospital. The sun must have shone at the correct angle because the rainbow was so rich and vivid. What was also apparent was the fine misty rain through which the sunlight was able to cast the otherworldly rainbow. Up ahead, I could just make out the fine misty rain covering the Cadillac SUV as it ignored the speed limit and began to weave in and out of traffic. The fine, misty rain stayed with the vehicle until it passed the U.H. cut-off.
Suddenly, the SUV banks a sharp right, soars over the rail, and lands upside down in the middle of Varsity Place Lane. The driver is killed instantly. It all happened within seconds. I panicked, took the South King Street cut-off, and parked at the Humane Society. I ran behind the facility and climbed down the steep hill until I reached the bottom and crossed through Kalo Place Mini-Park. The Cadillac landed on its roof. No one was hurt; minor licks of flame were coming from the gas tank, but it didn't get out of control. The fine, misty rain was still there, falling gently on the wrecked vehicle. Once the authorities arrived, the fine misty rain simply disappeared. It was 2:44 in the afternoon.
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